DANIEL ABSHARI ,MY SON

 Let me tell you about my favorite person in this big world,my son,Daniel Abshari.
To do this I have to start from the beginning and that would start with his daddy.
       I was seventeen living in Stephenville,TX residing at The Foster's Home,in care of Jan and Richard Alderfer.I was in my junior year of High school  and went to school from 8:00 am to 3:00pm-and I went to
work from 3:00pm-11:00 at the convalescent hospital across the street from Pizza Hut.For my supper I would

sometimes splurge and have a ham and cheese sandwich,or a small pizza.During one of these splurges I had met Farzin Abshari.He was assistant manager of Pizza Hut and he was going to Tarolton  State University in his finial year to receiving his Masters of Science Teaching degree.It surprised that I had accepted his request for a date because in high school I did not date . I spent my time studying  and working,I already knew what I wanted to be,a nurse.So when Farzin had asked me out,surprising myself I said yes.This went on for a while and at the time I had met a nurse where I worked and she said she was moving to Ft.Worth to go to school for her RN,she had her LVN.Nita Colliar .Long story short about high school,my junior year.I had all the credits I needed with an A&B average in everything.My senior year I would only need to take one class.I already knew 

what I wanted to do and I felt I was wasting time.So as I had been giving diligent thought of getting my GED

and going on to nursing school the next year,I had a run in with a male student that at a party I had attended the night before insisted on kissing me,the next day in typing class he said something to me and I was still upset with him that he had caught me off guard,I called him something I should not have and was sent to the office.Mr.Carlyle the vice principle insisted I get detention .I told him if he thinks he was going to give me detention for telling this boy off I'll quit right now.Mr. Carlyle didn't care and I was an A student that was not going to be bullied by the principle .So I quit and moved to Ft.Worth with Nita with the intentions of getting my GED and going to nursing school.Farzin didn't like it that I had moved to Ft.Worth,so he went to collage in the day ,worked at night and as soon as he got off he traveled from Stephenville to Ft.Worth to spend time with me and the drove home.This was a 100 ml. trip everyday.And I had fallen head over heels in love with him and I knew he loved me too.So one night I asked him,"Well ,Mr.Abshari ,are you going to ask me to marry you or not.And he asked me to marry him and we went that night and picked out rings,ate Chinese food,and woke up a friend of mine and told her the good news. I moved back to Stephenville with him and three weeks later we drove

up to Savannah,Tn where my mother Elnoria Creekpaum lived and got married at last minute by preacher Paul Briley,April 10,1984.
          Farzin and I lived in a two bedroom house with Farzin's best friend Hodge Hossein Deboshi across the
street from the University.I got an ugly surprise when I opened the door one day ,there was this tall black women standing there and she started yelling at me that I had married her husband. This women was crazy as you will later find out that this women did not leave Farzin and I alone until we were divorced in 1990.Her name was Cheryl Kay Harris.She had been with Farzin and had gone to Collage with him.She got pregnant by him and had an abortion,they had broke up long before we ever met but the woman was sick.Her daddy was a penicostial preacher.The women later named her first child with my husbands name so don't be surprised when her name comes up again.Her child was Not my husbands child.Later,you will see this women's pursuit   for my husband would cause me to have to call her father and ask him to please talk to his daughter because she was interfering in our life and marriage. I got my GED and Farzin graduated with his Masters degree.After Farzin graduated
Carla his general  manager with Pizza Hut had a store in Cleburne ,Tx that needed new managers.So Farzin and I moved to Cleburne,Tx .Farzin was manager and I became his assistant manager.We had a small apartment in a stone house,it consisted of one room with a kitchen and a bathroom.April of 1985 Farzin and I took a weekend to go up to see my mother for our anniversary .I had been wanting to get pregnant as every other woman ,including Carla was with child.and I felt that need to share love with a child.But as I had been told at fourteen because of the rapes and how fragile my bones were I probably would not be able to have a child.There had been damage inside as well. So I prayed and cried to the Lord asking please grant me with a child.Well ,I had started gaining weight and I went to the diet Dr,he did test and I wasn't pregnant ,this was about the third test I had taken,so he put me on diet pills.The next week after coming back
from our anniversary we found out we were pregnant!!! And as we waited to call back to find out the results
the Lord had spoke to me his name was to be Daniel,and to my surprise Farzin was just as pleased with the

name himself.

          In the meantime Farzin had been looking for a job in his field of agriculture or horticulture .But he also wanted to go home to see his family that he had not seen in a very long time.As I was pregnant  we were considering many things.Isn't it odd how what is happening in a total strangers life would effect the decisions
that you make in your own life.It was 1985 and it was a hot summer.What was happening in the news was a horror,little Adam Walsh,had disappeared and about two months later they found he had been decapitated .
After all the abuse I had lived through my childhood this story hit me strong.I pleaded for this child in my stomach and I was determined no abuse was going to happen to my child.So Farzin and I started discussing
moving to his country,Iran.So August 1985,Farzin and I started planing our trip,and at seven and a half months pregnant we flew to Germany.We stayed in a little bed and breakfast in Munich ,Germany.We were
looking for a vehicle we could drive from Germany to Iran.Hodgie,had made the trip earlier than we and he met up with us in Germany.We found a Mercedes Benz ,a 1984 burnt brick was the color.We had spent about one month in Germany then started out on the adventure to Iran,We drove through Ostria ,Bulgaria,Yugoslavia ,Turkey and finally Iran.The trip took about two weeks so I had about two weeks to delivery date.
          My son don't you know how much I love you?
For the trip to Iran we had packed some gifts for his family but we could only bring a certain amount of luggage.So I bought one dozen cloth diapers,several baby blankets,a few outfits and several gowns.It certainly was not enough but I was thinking when we get to Iran I could get disposable diapers but I really was in for a culture shock,no such luck on disposable diapers,if you could actually find them,they were too expensive for us.
         We spent about a week and half in Isfahan and Farzin and I went to Michacillimon where the Dr who
would be delivering my son lived.Dr.Deboshi was Hodgie's brother.The day we arrived in Michacillimon we
were getting bombed,there was a war going on between Iran and Iraq.And for all that do not know there is
a BIG difference between the two countries .That morning we got word that Farzin's grandmother had passed away so Farzin had to go back to Isfahan for the funeral .I actually went into labor one hour after he had left and I started praying for the Lord to keep this baby safe but please don't let him come until my husband got back.For three days I was in labor,72 hrs.I spent that time ironing cloths,cleaning,and visiting with Dr.Deboshi 's relatives as all the women of the families wanted to meet the American wife.And although
I had not learned the language yet there is always the language of signing.These elderly women would sit with
their chador  tightly wrapped  around their faces and when I would get a contraction and I would stand up and walk around doing my Lamaze breathing they would let out a giggle and speak to themselves.They left and I found myself alone,in labor,and bombs were dropping outside.I had experienced air raids in Isfahan so
at the age of nineteen I can only say My Jesus,My God He loves me and my son and we will get through this.
On the third day I picked my husband up from the airport and we went straight to the hospital. My son Daniel Abshari was born November 19,1985 at 8:30 in the morning.I was nineteen years old.
        My husband's step -mother was with me during the delivery and I remember her saying to me"Deborah,
Poush,poush." That was the way she said push,as she didn't know English.After the delivery they sent my son home with his daddy because there were many wounded men and they didn't want infections to spread to the
infants .I got to go home three days later and Farzin and I stayed with his dad and step-mother about a month before returning to Isfahan.Farzin's step-mother had been pregnant  but she miscarriage ,so there was
quite a bit of sadness and happiness in the home.She had been only about four or five months ,it was very sad I liked her,she was much younger than Farzin's  dad.
       After about a month Farzin,Daniel and I went back to Farzin's mother's house in Isfahan .I spent my days hand washing the dozen cloth diapers,blankets and baby clothing in the tub twice a day,between breast
feeding,burping,and changing.I then hung them on the line to dry.By the time I had one load washed the load on the line would be about dry.Then I started in on hand washing Farzin and my cloths once a week.Farzin's
brother Faradon and his wife Fraida and their son lived there also.Faradon was the person that had originally
encouraged my husband to become violent,Farzin had never hit me till we were in Iran,he always had a opinionated attitude  that he thought his way was the best way and that all others were ignorant.This was something I did not agree with but I was also mature enough to handle his opinions.Faradon
"If my wife talked to me like that I would shove her teeth down her throat."After that Farzin started beating
         Ladies,I know it is custom for us to get our baby boys circumcision ,well I wanted to do the same,but it became a feud between Ezat(Farzin's mother)and me.So it didn't happen till my sons fifth month.If you have ever seen this procedure done in person you would not do it again.I wanted to be with my son while this was being done,amazingly they let me.But I will tell you that it has haunted me ever since.To see my sons eyes
looking at me in shear pain and terror,screaming at the top of his lungs.I would have never had it done had I realized how horrible it was.My baby was so brave,he didn't take his eyes off of me the whole time.God,
I love my son,and even now the memory sends tears rolling down my face.
           On a shopping day it consisted of getting up early ,catching a bus to the middle of town and you would not be finished till about five in the evening .There is not a Super Walmart to get your every need,there is a line for the bread,which is made right in front of you on an open pit,its a type of flat bread.There is a line for your produce,you go to a butcher shop for the meat which there is a line there also.
          You start cooking your evening meal right after lunch and hope there isn't a black out,where all electric
goes out due to an air raid.But most evenings the electric would go out so for entertainment we would play card games.Usually it would be a game equivalent to Gin Rummy,in the light of a kerosene lantern .To spice up the love life ,as I had just had a baby I would make the game fun,a little secret between Farzin and I ,that
who ever won received the "right" for the night,course the "right"was never refused anyway,but it made it fun.
For a treat we would go to town to the "Mack Donald's" the equivalent to McDonald.We would have a burger,now you are going to think this is gross but it actually was quite good.On the burger would be like a coleslaw with green peas in it.Then we would visit the juice stand and have fresh fruit juice and walk around awhile to have a ice cream cone for desert.Now it was rare that I could find an ice cream without an ingredient called  "gloub" which is rose water.When I did it was a treat.A cocoa cola was a special treat also,it was not exactly like what we have in the U.S. but it was close enough to be a treat.
          Just as much as Daniel in my stomach developing into a beautiful baby boy was so important to me,that every time he had moved it was an experience that was marked in my memory forever,so was his birth.But the new born baby boy that I held  in my arms,the most pleasurable sound I had ever heard from him was his first giggle.Would you believe I received that first giggle in the car right after he got his first
immunisation  shot.I could not believe my ears,he cried for only just a minute and when we got into the car to go home I was trying to comfort him and I never expected the most beautiful sound to come out of him.And once he started it went on till we got home.Daniel was the happiest baby I had ever  seen.I know I am mom
but I tell you this boy was born with the hand of God blessing him .He is MY SON,I should know.
Now,I am going to get to something that I put into Gods hands many years ago,but I will tell you it still angers
me and if something is wrong health wise with my son because of Crystal she better know,I am a moma bear when I need to be ,I will seek till I find.I had always kept my son's immunisation shots up to date.When I was in Iran and up to the time of 1990 when Farzin and I divorced.Crystal being the young slut that she was and old slut now,only trying to show my ex-husband that she was a better mother than I was,administered ,all his shots a second time.My son has gone through hell because of that bitch.I have the documents to prove what I am saying.Crystal Lynn Freedle Fatemi Abshari Hensley MAY YOU BURN IN HELL BITCH!~She did
not care anything about what she was doing to my son.When my son was about eight she took him to the Dr.
to get my son on Ritalin because She felt he was too much to handle.She never once called me and asked if this was ok with me.When I picked my son up and he seemed like a zombie the whole time I had him I found out and I called Farzin and demanded he NOT give my son that shit again.Crystal ordered my son's birth certificate because she lost the orig.and they sent a birth certificate with the wrong birth date.Instead of sending it back requesting another one with the correct birth date she allowed my son to go on a bad birth certificate since he was sixteen .I did not find out about this till Daniel was nineteen.She did not care what kind of problems this would cause him in his future.I went though shear hell trying to fix
    Once the beatings started they did not stop.I had met another American women at the bus stop one day and we became friends.She had me over for coffee and we started enjoying worship together as she also was a Christian ,At this point I had been baptised in the Church of Christ and in the Baptist Church.But I also knew there was more about the Holy Spirit that the Church of Christ did not teach.This women was Holy Spirit filled and we rejoiced in the Lord together.We had gone out to the back of her house and we started singing all the praise songs we could remember.As we were singing a cloud had formed above her house,and the wind started blowing,the louder we sang the harder the wind blew till finally my hair was blowing straight out in front of my face.I had experienced and witnessed an awesome power of the Holy Spirit that day.This woman was also in a horrible situation,she also was married to an Iranian man and she had a son and daughter,the son was of the age of sixteen or seventeen and the Iranian government was trying to send her son into the war.Just as my son is American so was her son,it does not matter where the mother
delivers her child,take for instance,Madonna or Angelina it did not matter that they moved to Paris,or to Africa,the mother of the baby born is American,so is the child that was in her belly.
        I spent many nights in my mother in laws living room floor on a pallet with the curtain open looking up at the moon and beside the moon was one bright star that seem to beam its bright light down on me and I would cry out to Jesus because I did not know if I would ever see the United States again.The only thing that was on the Iranian TV was about the war,and unlike the US were they would censor the blood and guts,they would show all of it.One night my husband was not home,I had just changed my son's diaper and feed and burped him but he started crying and wouldn't stop,nothing I could do to still him.I knew what it was,colic.But my mother in law insisted that I had not feed him so she screamed and yelled at me.I was doing what I could to give comfort to his little stomach.When Farzin walked in the door his mother was yelling at him that I had not feed him.Which caused Farzin to fight with me.I told him I had already fed him and that it was colic,he said I should have just pretended to feed him again,,I told him no,that would be ling.This caused another beating and Farzin and his mother was kicking me out of the house.Hodge Hosein Deboshi and his mother interceded and gave me and my son Hodge's room at their home.This caused a lot of disturbance because this could have caused Hodgie and his mother to be put to death.This is no lie.During my stay at Hodgie in his room on the desk was a letter to Farzin from Cheryl Kay Harris,a love letter .Hodgie's mother went to talk to my mother in law and Farzin after about a week and they let me come back home.After that Farzin's mother took my son and Farzin took me to his brother Homyon 's house,his brother had a wife Maryiam and a daughter Ziala. Farzin left me there three days alone with Maryiam and would not let me see my son.For three days I had to drain my milking breast,as they were so swollen,and it was as if my body knew my baby was crying for me,I had to drain them in the sink.After three days Farzin came there with my son and we were going to stay there with Maryiam.Maryiam was nice to me and had the cutest daughter,but she would get horrible backaches in the middle of the night and would come and ask me to give her a massage.I did so reluctantly because I didn't get much sleep as it was ,Daniel waking up in the middle of the
night.One night I guess I didn't wake up when Mariam came to wake me up,when I woke up out of feeling something was wrong,I looked over and Farzin was not in bed.So I got up to find him and saw Maryiam's bedroom light on ,I opened the door to find my husband massaging my sister in laws naked body.When Farzin turned around he ordered me to "GO BACK TO BED".I did and that night I made myself forget what I saw  because I knew if I didn't I would not live.My heart and mind could not and would not accept what I saw.I knew my husband cheated on me.After that anything that happened was my fault.We got a flat tire it was my fault.

       After about two months Maryiam started getting morning sickness.She was pregnant. Farzin ,I and Daniel drove to Tehran and stayed with one of his sisters.He had two Shila and well at the moment I see her face but I can't remember her name.It'll come to me later.I believe she has passes away which does make me sad because I did love both Farzin's sisters.And this sister caught my heart because she was in a nightmare,her husband was married to three wives.The first wife lived up stairs apartment,she and her teenage son,Ali Reza in the middle apartment ,and he had recently
       When
told me to bring a small bag,with urgent things in it diapers,etc.to his office for him to have prepared for me.
He told me to go to a certain travel agency which an American man ran(I believe this man had to have been one of intelligence)but he had prepared travel arrangements for me and my son on a flight that the Egyptian Ambassador could not get on,so I should be praising the Lord,and I was.Farzin had already planed for me to be leaving,without Daniel,the day after I was actually planning to leave.with my son.I was supposed to tell Farzin I was depressed about leaving without my son that I wanted to take him for a walk in the park,but instead get a cab and meet the Ambassador at the airport.And I did.The only thing that went wrong was that
Ali Reza had seen me take the bag and leave.He followed me ,so Farzin knew and he got to the airport just
as I went into the gate to leave.At that point,he could not stop me.My son and I were on the way home but
we had more to go through because we left out on a flight that would be a layover in Switzerland .The hotel
that I was supposed to stay at was already in the travel agenda and we had a slight stop in Tel Aviv ,before proceeding to Switzerland.When we arrived in Switzerland,I had  told the cab driver the hotel we needed to go to but he had taken me to the wrong one,but the hotel assured me that they would take the hotel voucher
also.I and Daniel were both so exhausted and my mind in so many directions that I ordered something to eat and went to bed.I almost woke up to late to get to the airport on time,and the hotel manager said that they
would not accept the voucher so I had to pay for the room. So I paid and I know that he had cheated me also on the money exchange but this wasn't a vacation trip of leisure this was an escape,so I paid what he wanted and ran to the airport.Daniel  was cranky and was hungry so as embarrassing as it was I had to do the breast feeding in line with a diaper on me.I finally get to the counter with only minutes to spare before the
plane was to take off.Only to be told that the American Embassy had forgotten to send our passports to the airport.So Daniel and I were in Transit till they arrived .This just happened to be on Friday of Labor day weekend so we were stuck in the airport in transit till Tuesday when the Embassy opened.The airport had rooms available that had only a bed in it that you could rent to sleep,and you could purchase food in the food court.Yep,sounds like another movie doesn't it.I believe Tom Hanks played in it.Well this is not fiction.There
are plenty of documents and people that were involved to know that I am telling the truth.Tuesday finally came and Daniel and I boarded the plane for New York.I was so exhausted that Daniel and I slept the whole

way .And when I awoke we were landing in New York.Daniel  was ten months old,and I was twenty when we got back to the United States.We arrived right after Labor day weekend 1986.
      Now I have to give special thanks to all my HERO's for the safe return back to my son and my home
country.First and upmost the Glory and Praise belongs to God my savior,my Jesus,who died for just for me.
That he loved me and chose to be good to me ,even though mankind has hated me ,from my birth,my Jesus
loved me when I was just a spirit with Him.He is the GREAT I AM.And people you better remember this
because the Great I AM,Jesus knows all that has been done to me and when I put vengeance in His hands,do you really want to believe that He is incapable of destroying you before you destroy a child of His?HE IS MY GOD AND I AM HIS DAUGHTER.
       I  do not remember his name but the Ambassador of Switzerland ,you are my hero till the day I die.Your
willingness to come to the aide, to a woman and hear her plea for help and took the risk and helped her to get back to her own homeland with her child,not judging for a moment that her decisions that she had made to come to Iran were such unwise decisions.You took action and I pray God has blessed you ,even though I never knew if
you had received  any problems out of the situation ,you have been in my heart and prayers for twenty -six years.I pray God blessed you and yours for your good deeds.
       I also owe a great amount of gratitude to the travel agent,the one American man in Iran at that time ,likewise you also have been in my prayers all these years,even though I don't remember your name I know that God knew who you were.
      My special thanks as I have already done was to appreciate my foster mother and father Jan and Richard
Alderfer,Martha Hodges,and the prayers of Graham Street Church of Christ,as they were the only help as far as a family I had.In Stephenville TX.The thing that bothers me today is that there are alot of things that were
overlooked as far as my care in the Foster's Home.That I will discuss at a later time in a separate blog.For now in this blog I will discuss what happened to me and my son.
      When we arrived in New York,we had to then catch a flight from New York to Dallas,where Jan and Richard would pick us up and drive us to Stephenville.They let us stay there about a week,but I knew I had to find a way to get Daniel and I a place of our own.I had gotten ahold of Mary Jo my friend and she said
she and Mo (Mo Naser was Mary Jo's husband which was a friend of Farzin's)had gotten divorced and she had moved to Oklahoma City,Ok.She said she was coming down to see her mom and dad,the Silva's,and why don't I come up to Oklahoma City and roommate with her.At that point I really had no choice because although Jan and Richard had been my foster parents I could not just live with them,and also my beliefs in
the Lord Jesus and my relationship with him was a much deeper side than the Church of Christ could ever understand.I was not Church of Christ,my mother was Church of Christ,I studied my bible and I already knew that the teaching that the Church of Christ is not teaching what my bible taught.This is a very judgemental Church.And I have a right to be anything I want to be.The Lord Jesus never,ever not once did
he force anyone to his obedience.Now I ask you who do you people think you are to think that you have a right to interrupt my life because I love my Jesus and live for him,not the way your church believes I should but the way me and Jesus does.This is the life that God gave to each individual .And it is my concern that you would think that you have your own life so outstandingly righteous that you have spent six years taking a beam out of my eye that was not even there.You will lose your own soul doing such a thing,and as it is now 2012 and you have continued this endiver against me ,surly that is exactly what you have done.You have lost your own soul trying to make me do what you want instead of thinking that I am a forty-five year old woman that has taken care of herself and has a relationship with my Lord and Savior Jesus and YOU little you have
no control over me,my son,or what I believe in .I do not congregate in your church or with you.I am not your slave,as that is exactly what you intended to have me be,in today's term it would be called human trafficking,you think that by forcing me out of my career as a truck driver that you would force me into the type of life of a whore or prostitute?Or into the type of life style that you want me to be,cleaning your filthy homes and serving you?
     These are the last days and hours and the "Church buildings"are not going to save you for the horrible and selfish deeds that you the churches have done against me.You have stolen almost every material thing I had purchased by my own hard work and diligence.You stole my cloths,personal items,hygiene products,you stole food out of my own apartment.You mimicked anything I said or did trying to show that those actions or things that were cruelly done to me were being done to you.Are you people that ignorant or do you just not really believe in the God that you make an appearance in the building that was supposed to have been built to worship and praise God.Does God not say that no thief or abuser of another,which in Gods terms abuse is as if you have murdered,will even see the
kingdom of heaven.Do you think he looks the other way when you have done one time to me?You have done something to my son.And my Jesus knows what you have done,do you think my Jesus just sits aside and let you do these things.I love my own shoes because I know and my Lord knows where my heart ,mind and soul are .You have lost yours and trying to steal mine but it is impossible YOU ARE NOT ME!!!
     Crystal you are not Daniel's mother ,you was not even a good step-mother to him.My son hated you because you treated him so bad.Daniel knows who his mother is and he loves me and my son has never had disrespect or dishonor for me.He was respectful to me because I showed him LOVE.He saw and heard as
long as he can remember had bad you and Farzin talked about me.He also knows you lied .You were trash Crystal taking another women's husband before the bed was ever cold.Yes,Crystal I know you slept with my husband when he worked for the airport board.He came home smelling like you.You were a sick little girl and your parents and grand parents were sick to let you marry Fatemi at fifteen years old,to going out and cheating on Fatemi to sleep with a man and got pregnant and made my stupid ex-husband Farzin to raise that little girl as his own ,only to have the slut go cheat on him with the very same man you cheated on your first husband with.You raised your own daughter to be just like you ,CONGRATS!!!!But you were NEVER a mother to my son.Where were you when my son was so heart broken he almost killed a boy and himself because his girlfriend Meridith had cheated on him with a black boy,that's right you were on a second honeymoon with  FarzinI was with my son and he did no harm to himself or the other boy.I am not jealous Crystal .I opted to love Farzin, a honeymoon was not important to me .My husband Farzin could not afford a honeymoon .He couldn't afford a wedding,let alone me a wedding dress.But see the thing is Crystal I loved him and I gave birth to his first born son,you can not ever take that away from my son.I don't care that you got the abusive husband I had escaped from and our government was the ones that let him get back to the US causing me to have to deal with the horrible man.I had to allow him to be the custodial parent because  he was able to care for my son financially and I wasn't because I was only twenty and had no family to help me.Do you really think you were so much better than me?Really?Well Crystal seems to me like it is documented in the court of law that I stood up not once but twice against the person's that had touched my body against my will.I fought against all the others.You also I recall had told me you were molested by someone,I don't think I recall YOU
standing up against them.Did I call your son when he was six years old and tell Adam that his mommy was just sick and a whore because she was molested when she was a child?No,but you did my son that way.You think that made my son think higher of you than me?Do you really think that even Adam had not heard and seen the way you treated Daniel ?Adam is his half-brother and he will always know how bad you treated his brother.If I find out Crystal you have done this to my son ,what ever is happening now ,you will deal with me alone .This I promise you.
       Sorry that I get off track sometimes in anger,but if you are reading this,you still don't understand that as of today I am living in shear hell.I don't know what has happened to my son,that most of all,but also that I have been reduced to living in my car and can not seem to get through to any of the Federal agencies that what I am saying is happening on a daily basis that I am being not only harassed ,but degraded along with

being discriminated against.THEY WANT ME DEAD!!!Let me explain something to you all.I AM AN AMERICAN AND MY SON IS AN AMERICAN>Hear this video it says it all,that you people have no right to have done these things to me and I have a right to speak what you have done to me and I have a right to press criminal  charges against you and IN THE NAME OF JESUS ON BEHALF OF ME AND MY SON I WILL HAVE JUSTICE AGAINST YOU WHO HAVE DONE THIS TO US>My maiden name is CREEKPAUM,although I am not proud of the man who was my father who gave me this name ,as he was a very sick man,but I am who I am.And with this name comes the heritage of American Indian,Cherokee.Now
weather this story to be true or not it was told to me.There is a Cherokee reservation with the Creekpaum name,that the reservation are named after a chief.So if this be so I am a Indian princess.Just for a little humor
or maybe the truth.I really don't care because I already knew who I am,I AM THE DAUGHTER OF THE LIVING GOD<KING OF KINGS AND IF HE BE KING OF KINGS I AM A PRINCESS OF PRINCESS>YOU CAN"T GET GREATER THAN THIS.The other proof is that my grandmother BertaMcCasland / Davidson  is decedent of a United States President.It's in the genealogy book,I believe.I don't even care about that because this family is not one to be proud of ,it has generational incest and in all the generations I am the only one to put a stop to it and I told the truth.I was born  American ,I am an American born free and so is my son.AND I WILL SPEAK!!!
         I went with Mary Jo to Oklahoma City,Ok.And there I had to buy some cloths ,for Daniel and I as we
only had a few changes between us.I had paid Mary Jo half of the rent.Little did I know that Mary Jo had changed so much.Mary Jo had a single life of partying and she hung out with Moroccan  men.I had a son and I did not party so I stayed in the apartment with my son trying to recoup from the year of extreme emotional and physical abuse.I met a man Said Abourifq,he seemed content to sit and talk to me while everyone else went out to a party.He did not take advantage of me in any way.He was kind,concerned and caring.He was in all a complete gentleman.When I fell asleep in the middle of a conversation he took a blanket and covered me and left.He was a good man.After about three weeks he could see I could not stay there with Mary Jo,our lifestyle was too different and I had a baby that needed a quieter place .Said asked me to move in with him and his friend at least till I figured out what I was going to do.Said worked and  went to collage.Considering the circumstance I could not refuse,he was good to me and he was good to Daniel.So I moved in with him and Said and I fell in passion love.And I got pregnant .Said asked me to marry him then about a week later Farzin was allowed back into the States.Said was told by Mary Jo and Said wrote me the

saddest letter.He cried as I read it.He told me my husband was back and that he was looking for me.He begged me not to go and said how much he loved me.He asked me again to marry him.I did love Said,he had become my best friend,my lover,and he loved my son,which was more important to me.But I was only twenty years old and Farzin had been so bad to me and he had cheated,no it didn't make it right that I fell in love but you have to get real,you want to believe that as Christians we always have choices and that you are never alone and that the only reason we sin is because  it is of rebellion and there is always someone there to help you when you are in need.It simply is not the truth.You don't always have choices,you don't always have the right answers and you definitely don't always have rebellion in your heart when you do the wrong thing

you have needs that have to be met in life,to live and at twenty years old my needs for comfort,arms that are loving around me ,and the strength of a man that was gentle was needed.Lest you forget all the horror of my childhood,then Iran.I am too old to make excuses or lies,it is the truth.Said and I met with Farzin at a restaurant and Farzin and I sat down and talked.Farzin started crying which caused me to cry ,he said he was sorry for what he had done.He asked me to forgive him and come back to him. I told him I was pregnant and Said had asked me to marry him.I told him Said was good to us both.He pleaded for me to give him a chance to show me that he would be good to me again and that he would accept the baby as his own.At this point I did not know what to do,I had the "love "still for my husband as every abused women feels but I did not expect him back,as I had already gone to immigration and they assured me that he would not be back in the States.So I told Farzin and Said that I needed time to think and that I didn't want pressure from anyone.And I went to Savannah,Tn to see my mother and grandparents.This visit turned into a big trauma that I will explain at a later time.No,I think it is important that I tell this now,since I have been judged so cruelly.
        A few facts you should know:1.I did not drink or do drugs at anytime during the time I breast feed my son.I did have 1 glass of wine on my flight to New York from Switzerland,and that would have only the affect that I wanted it to and that was for my son and I to relax.2.I did start smoking cigarettes when I was in Iran and that was only because my husband refused to quit smoking and I had given up sooo much to go there with him,such as have to wear the heajove ,the Iranian scarf(which I made sure to wear pink,instead of the required dark black or navy blue,to show I AM an AMERICAN) and could not wear make-up ,all I wanted from him was to not smoke cigarettes.We were in a argument about that subject and he refused so I picked up a cigarette and started smoking it and he had broke it in my hand ,and said women don't smoke in public.That was enough for me that I went down stairs and bought a pack and smoked them starting my habit.I did not smoke while breast feeding.When we got divorced Farzin quit to impress Crystal.3.Farzin has spent a lifetime blaming me of being a bad mother and accusing me of drugs and drinking,but I will let you know that it was Farzin and his brother Faradon that sat with a bong smoking hashish or opium when I was due to deliver any day.I had to go stand outside and I was mad at Farzin for this and yelled at him and that was when Faradon said "if my wife spoke to me like that I would shove her teeth down her throat ."I have NEVER<NOT EVER DONE DRUGS IN FRONT OF MY SON <I DID NOT SMOKE OR DRINK
PREGNANT  AND I DON"T BELIEVE HE HAS SEEN ME DRUNK<IF HE HAD IT WAS MAYBE ONCE<BUT I DON'T BELIEVE EVEN ONCE.SO THE BLAME GAME FARZIN AND CRYSTAL HAS PLAYED ALL THESE YEARS ENOUGH IS ENOUGH>FARZIN WANTED TO TAKE DANIEL FROM ME TO PUNISH ME FOR FALLING IN LOVE WITH  ANOTHER MAN FARZIN NEVER CONSIDERED WHAT HE HAD DONE AND CONTINUED TO DO<AND
CRYSTAL ONLY WANTED WHAT WAS NOT HERS<WHEN MY SON GOT TO THE AGE OF HAVING A MIND OF HIS OWN SHE DIDN'T WANT TO LOVE HIM ANYMORE>
     So back to the time at hand.I went to Savannah,Tn to see my grandparents and mother.About three days and I could tell my grandfather had Alzheimer's .I tried to tell my grandmother and mother and Aunt Hellen Bridges -Hickcox,and Roy Davidson .They would not lesion. I was worried for my son because grandpa would open the bedroom door and ask who I was and that I better get out of his house or he would kill me.And one Wednesday night before church I was watching TV and my grandpa got mad and shut the TV off and yelled that I was wasting electricity.So I got up and went to the phone to call Farzin and tell him that I would come home and my grandpa had picked up a piece of firewood and came at me and was going to hit me in the head with it.I had the phone in my hand and raised my hand to protect my head and as I raised my hand ,the phone hit my grandpa in the head,around his temple.So he had a bruise by the time they went to church.By the time church was out my Aunt Helen ,Uncle Roy,his wife Glenda,mom,and grandma were all there calling me a whore,that I was going to hell,that I was a slut,and that they were calling Sammy to press charges against me.I think Roy called Sammy and I think Sammy refused to even come out.Sammy is my cousin,the Sheriff.I kept trying to tell them that grandpa needed to go to the Dr.,I had worked with the elderly and I could see the signs of what
was wrong with him.When I got up the next morning to leave grandpa came out side ,kissed Daniel and said Deborah,I love you and I am so sorry what I did,he said you don't have to leave.I told him that I loved him too but I needed to get back.I asked him to please go to the Dr.He told me with tears rolling down his face that he always loved me and that if I ever needed a place for me and my son ,that we are always welcome he also told me that he believed that the Lord is alright with me to get a divorce because he knows that the Lord does not want me or my son hurt by a man.I kissed and hugged him and headed back to Texas.It took seven years before they took my grandfather to the Dr.and found out yes,indeed,he had Alzheimer's.
       Now I have a few questions for this so called family-Roy and Glenda Davidson>1Just exactly how it is that you had the right to put me through so much more trauma by screaming and yelling at me that I was going to go to hell when you your self's got divorced.Who were you to call me a whore and slut when both of you cheated openly against each other.Glenda you being a drug addict even came up to McKenzie ,TN where I lived with my second husband with a story that Roy was beating you up and locked you in doors,and watched your every move .That you needed money to get away from him.I gave you a loan of 300.00 dollars
and I am your husband's niece.And I worked hard for my money and yet you knew what situation I was in and never once bothered that I needed the money.That I am living in my car with no way to get help and you
have judged me to hell?Consider God.Hum ,I don't get the same conclusion you did,for I see that my home will be the GRANDEST THAT NEITHER ONE OF YOU WILL EVER SEE.A PALACE MADE FOR A QUEEN>And I have a question for you also,how is it you think you have the right to pass this judgement upon me,Roy,your sister's daughter,and yet your own daughter that,as you believe was brought up sooo in a better environment than your(poor miss led,mentally ill sister,Elnoria's)daughter,that YOUR daughter came to you UNMARRIED,PREGNANT,and UNDERAGE,OH I guess you treated her and her child like you did me,CALLING HER A SLUT<A WHORE<AND THAT SHE WAS GOING TO HELL.I BELIEVE THAT SLUT AND WHORE (THAT YOU CALLED ME)WAS RIGHT IN YOUR OWN HOME,YOUR OWN WIFE AND DAUGHTER PROVED TO BE WHAT YOU CALLED ME .AS THE LORD SAY'S VENGEANCE IS MINE>DO YOU NOT AGREE?I BELIEVE THE SLUT AND WHORE YOU CALLED ME WAS THE DESTINATION OF YOUR OWN DAUGHTER>AMANDA.GOOD LUCK WITH THE GRAND CHILD<BECAUSE YOU CALLED THE CURSE UPON YOUR FAMILY AND YOU HAVE NOT THE HOLY SPIRIT TO CHANGE IT>HOPE YOU LIKE IT HOT>
        And Helen Hickcox,oh,Miss turned goodie goodie too shoes,my Aunt Helen who when I was ten years old I recall seeing you naked in the backseat of a car ,with a man ,a man that you were cheating on your husband with.Or should I say Helen HOW MANY DO I KNOW YOU SLUTTED YOUR BODY TO?Truck drivers talk Helen or didn't you know that you were known as a cheap lay in the trucking industry.Does it ring a bell to you of a Trucking Company owner that was married and you were screwing him.And yet you have the audacity to stand before the daughter of your sister that you were so jealous of,you think I did not know that either,think again,pictures say a thousand words,all of you put my mother in the background,in every picture you took together,you are liers,you did not love my mother,you were ashamed of her,you spent a life time trying to make her know how less she was than you,but truth is Helen,you know GOD LOVED HER AND BLESSED HER AND YOU KNEW THAT EVERYONE ELSE KNEW TO SO YOU PUT ON A PERFORMANCE WHEN YOU MARRIED THE LAST HUSBAND<MR>HICKCOX  THAT YOU HAD BECOME RIGHTEOUS>PERFORMANCE NOT WELL DONE,SEE YOUR HEART STILL SHOWED THROUGH <YOU DIDN'T CHANGE<ONLY YOUR MARITAL STATUS.NOTHING MORE.My last question I asked you in Savannah,Helen what did I ever do to you?
You he-hauled around and could not find one thing I had done wrong to you.NOT ONE>GO TO HELL MY AUNTS AND UNCLES THAT TREATED MY MOTHER AND HER CHILDREN AS THE HEATHEN<YES<OH<YES<THE LORD ALLOWED ME TO SEE THE VERY THINGS THAT YOU CALLED ME <HE ALLOWED ME TO SEE THESE THINGS UPON YOU<YOUR CHILDREN AND YOUR CHILDREN'S CHILDREN.NOT ONLY THAT EACH ONE OF YOU<I ALSO THAT YOU ALL ONE BY ONE  YOU HAVE LOST YOUR MINDS.CONGRATULATIONS BECAUSE
THROUGH YOUR JUDGEMENTS AGAINST ME <I GOT TO SEE GODS PROMISES TO ME AWARDED>NO DOUBT>I PRAISE AND HONOR A GREAT LOVING GOD THAT DOES KEEP HIS PROMISES>AMEN>2 Chronicles 20:15 ,Deuteronomy 1:17.
           I went to Stephenville ,TX  and spent a weekend with Jan and Richard .To think and Said called and I cried and the next morning he was there to pick us up.He didn't tell me he was coming,he was there because he did love me and Daniel and it hurt him to think that I would be beat up by Farzin again.I went up with him back to Oklahoma City,but I knew I was going to have to make a decision that was going to be best for my son ,Daniel.Either decision I made hurt with all my heart.You are a fool if you could think otherwise.I knew that it was going to break Said's heart,because I knew he truly loved us,but I felt it my responsibility to hold our family together if possible .Farzin may have changed and would never hit me again
and he might not cheat again ,being that he got a taste of what it felt like.How would I know and how would
my son feel if I didn't try?Do not think that I did not love Said because I did.He treated me right.And I will never say anything against a man who did everything right,and lost his love anyways.A true gentleman.
I called Farzin after telling Said that I must go back.Farzin came and picked us up and we went down to
Dallas,TX.Farzin worked for the Airport Board,as a PSA.We lived in a one bedroom apartment in Irving,Tx
and it didn't take but two days ,and I was in morning sickness,and he would tear me up verbally.I knew that this baby would never be accepted by Farzin,even though there was a slim chance that it was his.So after
a morning of throwing up and being called all the horrible names that I was not,and hearing my son crying
at the top of his lungs scared because of all the yelling,Farzin had left to spend the day with Sammy,an Iranian
friend,I comforted Daniel,got dressed,dressed myself and drove to Sammy's.Farzin met me outside and I handed him Daniel and told him I was going up to OK City,and when I returned I would not be pregnant.
I went up and talked to Said and we set up an appointment to have the procedure done.This was the one and only time in my life to make this decision,and it was not easy.But I was surprised because I was the only
women or girl there that felt that this was death.I won't even go into detail of how the other women felt but I will say none of them felt regret at all.I was the only one wishing and praying for another way.When it was done about two days later I said goodbye to Said and I drove back down to Texas.Only to find that Farzin had allowed Mary-Jo's parents,Crystal's grandparents(Mary-Jo is Crystal's Aunt) to take my son to California with them,and they would not be returning for a month.I was furious and hurt.I just did something that I believe is very wrong, above adultery for the sake of my husband and my son ,to find he allowed pretty much total strangers ,at the time to take our son out of State?
          Now I am backtracking again because  I need to make a statement regarding the difference of the USA and SWITZERLAND ,Switzerland took immediate action and helped me ,I an American,they cared,I am ashamed as an American how the Americans my own people,did not care in the least,yes Foster's Home
Jan Alderfer.Do you not know that I know that Richard insisted on helping me ,there are a lot that I know Jan as you will find out.I have a question Jan Alderfer,and Janice Savage,Why was I the only foster child to not have a sponsor?Why did I have to insist upon counseling before I received any?Why when I tried to commit suicide was I not taken to the hospital?Why did you not love me?I was sixteen years old.
             Ok,back to where I was ,1987.The Silva's had taken Daniel to California with them and they would not be coming back for a month.I was twenty years old and Daniel was one.Farzin worked for the airport board ,as a psa,he drove the shuttle buses.I got a job working in the terminal deli.Anytime Farzin would get mad at me he would hide my keys to the car so I wouldn't make it to work on time.Then he spread a rumor
in the deli,which ended up reaching my boss that I was on drugs.I ended up fired because Farzin had me in such an emotional  disarray.I had found us a better place to live in Arlington,so we moved there.The Silva's
finally had made it back with Daniel and as it had been about six weeks that I had not seen my son I was extremely overjoyed to have my son in my arms again.I had to find another job though so I had to find a babysitter also.I had found a babysitter and then I went looking for a job.The experience I had since I was fifteen was babysitting,cleaning office's of the foster home,and cna at the conversant hospital.So I went to a two week course teaching you about money handling,called Bank Telling School.I got a certified to be a bank teller.I had spent many weeks looking for a job but they all wanted experience.So I was looking in the paper and I went for an interview to be a leasing consultant.And I had got the job.(going back alittle during this time Farzin was fighting horribly with me,and in any argument he was screaming  at me that I just needed to go back to Said Abourifq,he even called Said and told him he needed to come and get me,poor Said was doing everything he could to pick up the pieces of his own life and had started dating someone.Farzin had handed the phone to me to talk to him and all I could get out of my sobs was how sorry I was that everything turned out the way it did,how much he had done for me that I had appreciated and I pray he his happy and can forget all we went through together,and I said good-bye again.During this time also before I had found the job as a leasing consultant ,Farzin and I were in the car with Daniel in the car seat in the back and Farzin was fighting with me calling me a whore and I could not take it,I was screaming back at him ,my son ,God bless his little heart,started crying and Farzin took a hand and hit me.When he did this I yelled for him to pull the car over,he pulled the car over and I got out,he got out and I started running down the hill and hid in the bushes.A man saw me and called the cops.The cops came out and I told them what had happened and they asked if I wanted to press charges I said no,they ran my license and I had a speeding ticket out,and because I wouldn't press charges against him for the abuse,I went to jail.Yes,you all guessed it I had become the statically abused women.I went to jail and Farzin had come to bail me out.When I got out I went outside and Farzin was inside ,he had left the doors to the car unlocked and Daniel left there in the car in his car seat asleep.I had picked Daniel up and there happened to be a taxi cab
there and I had the taxi to call the abuse hot line and I had gone to the abuse shelter with my son.I had stayed there about three days with my son and we were made to do group therapy.I could not handle to do this with the other women,they would not understand what I was going through,the abuse yes,but they had no clue to the danger I was facing.So I had gone back to Farzin and we went through the"honeymoon cycle"
by now I knew too well.
          As I said I got the job as a leasing consultant for an apartment complex in Euless and with my position I got a discount rate on the rent.My skills became perfect as my leasing ratio was 100%.Maxine was my manager,I remember her well,a dear sweet women,Kay Arthur reminds me of her so much,that anytime I have seen Kay's preaching I get a tear and long to give her a hug.Maxine was a wonderful woman.We lived
there Farzin working for the airport board and me for the apartment complex.Daniel was growing,walking and potty trained easy ,I was so proud of my son.(going back a little,to the other apartment,Daniel had been playing with his dad hopping on his shoulders while Farzin had been sitting on the sofa.I guess Farzin had been eating something because there was a plate and a fork on the coffee table,Daniel  had jumped to far and missed his daddy's shoulders and landed on the coffee table his cheek hitting the fork,the fork had gone into his cheek so deep that it had stuck inside it,I picked him up and ran to the phone and called 911 and they dispatched me to the hospital,I talked to a Dr. and he said it was ok to carefully pull the fork out.I did and it really didn't bleed that bad but it left a small puncher wound scar on his cheek.)He still has the scar on his cheek.Crystal and Fatemi(thats what
we called Hamid  Fatemi which was Farzin's manager when he worked for Pizza Hut and our friend)were going to get married ,and Farzin and I had been talking about (yes,believe it or not)renewing our vows.I was twenty-one by now.So Crystal and I talked about a double wedding and honeymoon.This did not happen for Farzin and I but Crystal and Fatemi got married and Farzin,I and Daniel attended.Crystal and I had gone shopping together for dresses and it was nice to see what I looked like in a real wedding gown.But that dream was not alive for this marriage.Here is my sign,<The day of the wedding I caught Crystal and Farzin in the back yard whispering  together and very close,when I came out they had made some excuse and Farzin quickly went inside.The fighting had continued along with the beatings.During this time I was talking to Dana my sister on the phone and she would tell me to come to Indiana and she would get me help.I had no clue that Dana really had not grown like she should have and she had no clue of the kind of help I needed.It wasn't her fault she just was behind mental wise to her age and I didn't know.The last time I had seen Dana she was around thirteen and now she was nineteen or twenty which means I was twenty-three or twenty-four.Which means Daniel was three or four.I 'm trying my best with the dates and times .During this time Daniel and his dad were playing running around the apartment and I was ironing cloths on one of those table top boards but instead of having it on the table I was on the bedroom floor ironing.They were running around me and I yelled at them to play in the living room that I was ironing.I had just finished up and unplugged the iron and was hanging the cloths up when they came running through the bedroom again,and because I wasn't sitting with the iron and board Daniel had tripped and fell with his hind end and the back of his leg right on the iron.I ran to pick Daniel up but Farzin knocked me out of the way and hit me ,grabbed Daniel yelling at me.
He had run Daniel to the hospital,it was a third degree burn and when my son would sleep he would cry out,I hurt so bad for my son and just as Farzin blamed me,I also blamed my self,my poor son,I can't imagine how bad that burn hurt.I cried and prayed.Daniel still to this day has the scar on his leg and buttock,not as apparent but it is still there.Not long after Leona Cato my foster sister had called and said she was going to be delivering her baby in a hospital not far from where I lived,if I didn't mind if she spent a day or two with me before she went to the hospital.Of course I didn't care it would be nice to have a friend to see.Leona came and we spent the day together then the next day she went to the hospital and when she was released she came and spent one night with me till her sponsor that she had at the foster home came and picked her up.Night after night and day after day being hated by my husband and blamed for everything that ever went wrong and beat when I fought back,knowing how awful this was for my son.Fazin beat me one night and I called the police and same o ,same o ,they couldn't do anything unless I was willing to press charges.I had Daniel in a daycare during the day while I worked.Farzin came home one night,as in several nights smelling of Crystal's perfume.I knew he had been with her,he was also coming home later than usual .I called Dana again
and Dana sounded assured that if I came up there that she could get me help.So I had made a plan for a week what I had to do.I would,after Farzin left for work,open the apartment to the neighbors and anything I could sell I would sell,this meant any jewelry I had,all furniture ,anything that would give me money for gas and food to sub stain us till we got to Indiana.And the final day had come I think I told Maxine good-bye,but I had gotten enough money to do us about a month.I had put Daniel in daycare as usual and after I had us packed ,and our stuff in the car,I went and picked Daniel up and we were on our way.It had still been warm in Texas but as we drove ice started forming on the road and Daniel was asleep in the back.Daniel woke up hungry and was reaching for me as I went in a construction zone and I glanced back when I hit a patch of ice and the car went out of control.I eventually ended up in a grassy area and had stopped safely.It had scared Daniel and I both so bad we both sat there shaking ,crying and holding on to each other.I got out of the car and I couldn't see that there was any damage,but I would find out later that there was a puncher in the radiator.But I got control of myself and I calmed Daniel and I continued on the trip.

When we got to Indianapolis I called Dana and she gave me directions to a lady's house that had lived in an old farm house in Carmel ,we got there in the wee hours of the morning but I had called the lady to let her know that we were there.After we got there Daniel and I went straight to bed .The room was extremely cold
as I learned later that this lady was in bad shape financially and was about to lose the house and barn with all her horses .She trained horses and boarded them also.As did Karen ,Dana's adopted mother but Karen breded and showed them also.The room was so cold I had Daniel covered up as much as possible but he got a fever.A high one that scared me.I took care of him and myself the first few day and about the time I knew I was going to have to take him to the hospital,I cried out to the Lord because I knew if I had used the insurance card Farzin would know where I was at.The Lord had sent a miracle ,that morning Daniel's fever had broke and he was playing again and laughing.I was so thankful to the Lord I don't know when I stopped crying.Dana didn't come out to  see me,I can't remember if it was that she didn't have a car or if she didn't want Karen to know I was there,but I was not scared of Karen ,so I called Karen and told her the situation.She truly did not care,she said that is between you and Dana,I have nothing to do with it.I had come all this way to get away from Farzin and get help ,to find out Dana had not explained the situation to anyone and had led this women that I was staying with that I was coming to find a job immediately to help her situation so she would not lose her horse ranch.I paid the women a little money of what I had for rent and food.And the lady watched Daniel while I went looking for a job.I had found a leasing job at a low rated apartment complex that came with an efficiency as part of the pay but the pay was not even compared  to what I made in Texas and gas and food were extremely high to the pay rate.I  had found a babysitter for Daniel while I worked.I was the assistant manager and the manager was a woman named Marianne.We had become friends.But the apartment complex was a really bad area to live in .I had to get us in a better place to live so I moved in one of the apartments that was within the company but I only got a small discount on it.I thought I would be able to handle the cost but I wasn't making enough money for food.I remember Daniel telling me one night "Mommy ,do you know why I love you so much?" I said why,giving him a kiss and a hug,
he said"Because you never leave me."I kissed him and said I never will,he went to sleep and I went to bed and cried all night because I didn't know what I was going to do.I started looking for another job that would pay more and got an interview with Little Caesars .The night before my interview my car broke down because it had busted a block so to get to my interview the next day it had costed me thirty dollars.My last thirty dollars.I got the job as assistant manager but the store I would be working at was to far,it was across town from where I lived  and the cost of the apartment would go to full price as soon as I changed jobs.It so happened that Marianne lived across the street from where I would be working and so did her brother who had a two bedroom apartment.She talked  to him and he agreed to let Daniel and I stay there till I got on my feet.It was extremely cold there compared to the weather we were used to in Texas and Daniel got sick again with another high fever .I nursed him back to health and was supposed to start working for Little Caesars that Monday.Dana had come over to meet Marianne's brother and to see Daniel and I told her my situation that I had the job,a place to stay but no money or anybody to babysit Daniel while I worked.Dana
insisted I let her take Daniel until I can find a place to live (staying with Marianne's brother was supposed to be help for me,not a permanent place to live but two weeks after Daniel and I was there ,Marianne's brother was demanding rent)and arrange for a babysitter.I didn't want to do it remembering my son's statement but I didn't know what else to do.Dana was staying with her boyfriend and his mother and I had talked to her and she assured me she had raised a son that she would make sure Daniel was well taken care of till I have a place to live ,can support him and arrange for proper daycare.After I got my first check which took three weeks,I started looking for a place to live ,I got lucky and found a one bedroom also across the street from where I worked.I had moved in and was considering the next paycheck for furniture and stocking the refrigerator.then within another two to three weeks I would locate a babysitter.As it was I had just moved in and I got paid every two weeks.
Dana without even talking to me first had called Farzin and told him,"Come get your kid before I kill him"then she contacted me and told me what she did.I called Farzin to tell him to leave us alone and he let me know that he had a friend of his,this was a German man who worked in customs and immigration to put out an apb on me,that I was a drug user and dealer.I had never touched drugs ,not even experimented as of yet.This German man had already when Farzin and I were together had manhandled me and threatened to beat me up one time when he was at our home.He was a very scary man.
        Dana had only kept Daniel a month,and I had no way yet to provide a babysitter for him.Farzin said he would be there the next day to pick Daniel up.There was nothing more I could do but to let Daniel go with
his daddy back to Texas.The next morning while I was waiting for Farzin to arrive ,Dana and the women that
she lived with was trying to convince me to put Daniel in Foster care.Dana,you are real lucky to be alive you hateful bitch.YOU CALLED MY HUSBAND AND TOLD HIM WHERE I WAS THEN YOU WANTED TO LAY IT ON MY SHOULDERS LIKE IT WAS MY FAULT>YOU BITCH>AFTER WHAT I WENT THROUGH IN FOSTER CARE YOU THINK I WAS GOING TO PUT MY SON THERE?That night Farzin had got us a room at a hotel and the three of us stayed there.I held Daniel tight and cried.Farzin was asking me to come back with him.I told him I would not go through his abuse anymore and
that he had cheated way before I had a relationship with someone who was tender and caring.At this point
Farzin had never hit Daniel,and I knew he loved him,and that he could provide for him.But I could not be beat by this man again.The next morning Farzin and Daniel boarded the plane for Texas and I stayed behind.
I immediately fell into depression and so a week later I got a bus ticket.I didn't have enough to make it all the way to Texas,so I got one to Savannah,TN.I thought maybe someone there would help me get back to Texas.I got to Savannah and cried to my mother.My grandfather was worse than before.I saw Donna while I was there,which was not by choice.She mentioned that John her ex husband had Cristina her daughter,so I called to see if I could come visit with her.I told John what the situation was ,that I needed to get back to Texas.John told me to hitchhike.I was scared to death,but I had no choice I needed to be with my son.As soon as John had dropped me off on the interstate,a man stopped and picked me up.He was a Captain of a Ship and he was heading down to Louisiana.He gave me a ride till we got to where he met his ship,and he took me to the bus station and bought me a ticket to Dallas.When I arrived in Dallas I called Farzin and he came and picked me up and said he had an attorney draw up divorce papers.I told him I would not sign till I got help.So I tried to get legal aide to help me but they refused the case.I had no choice,as much as I had tried I was not going to be able to care for Daniel and fight Farzin on my own.Especially when the Silva's,and all of Farzin's friends,along with Crystal calling me a whore and telling Daniel that I didn't love him.At one point Farzin and I got back together again,before the divorce,but the same things happened,this time Farzin had the lease in his name and he called the police and had me kicked out.I had no place to go,but a friend of mine suggested I go to work at the bar that she worked at.It was a topless bar.I  told her I could not take my cloths off.She said I could waitress.So I did start working that night and I made enough tips to pay for a hotel
for the week.I didn't have a car so I couldn't pick Daniel up.I worked hard and finally had enough money for a car.It wasn't a good car but it got me to see my son.It was hard to show my son happiness when so much sadness was in my heart.Daniel would get in the car and as soon as we pulled out he would tell me mommy,Crystal and daddy talk about you all the time.They tell me you don't love me.Tears started rolling down my cheeks and I told him honey,you are a lucky little boy because you know I love you,and your dad and Crystal loves you.He would start crying and say ,mommy you don't know what they are saying about you.I told him it didn't matter what they said ,it was not the truth and I love him with all my heart,Crystal had told my son ,my six or seven year old son about me being molested as a child.CRYSTAL
I NEVER ONCE DOWNGRADED YOU TO MY SON,I NEVER TOLD HIM WHAT A LYING<CHEATING<SLUT YOU WERE.I DIDN'T HAVE TO ,MY SON SEEN WHAT YOU ARE.
         My son,my beautiful son would pick all kinds of flowers for me,and bring them to me and say,these
are special for you,and kiss me.Daniel,was about six or seven and he had saved his allowance which  was
about three dollars.It was my birthday and he wanted to buy me a dozen roses.So we went to the grocery
store and I let him pick the roses and when we got to the counter I had the cashier put the roses on my bill but when he gives her the money to give him back in change,so he thought he did have enough.He had been so worried that it wasn't enough.You had never seen a child more proud and loving his mommy more than my son did that day.Crystal was so jealous that later that week she takes Daniel by the building of the bar that
I worked at telling him what a whore I was and that is why I didn't have time for him.When I picked my son up he started yelling at me you don't love me.Oh,Jesus,my Lord and my God,How many tears must I cry in pain and agony,how long before you reward the lies their due.How long Lord till you answer.I had met a man John Renteria,he was a truck driver and after awhile he asked me to move in with him.So I did,and I prayed
for a new job and the lord answered.I started working for The Roomstore in customer service.I worked for The Roomstore aprox 3 years.I have letters of recommendations still for my good work.I also have letter of recommendations from some of the apartment complexes that I worked at.I made 7.50 an hour.This was not enough money .By the time I payed half the rent and utilities there was not enough left for extras like a movie
or even cloths.Daniel did not like John and I truly could understand why.John had a very selfish streak in him.He wanted to take Daniel and I to the movies but it had to be the movie that he picked.The movie he picked was not the kind of movie for a child of Daniel's age.But Daniel wanted to go and I didn't have the money to take us anywhere.So we went.And of course Farzin had another thing to use against me.
I went out on a trip with John and I started thinking about driving a truck.This made good money and I could
start building a life for Daniel and I.I went to Tri-State Truck driving School.The course was three weeks then you work for a company and you go out with a trainer for three weeks.I started working for KLLM
and got my training with them then John and I started teaming together with Lazanti  Foods,Irving Tx.
      Now to clear up some misconceptions ,my son was nine years old when I became a driver.He was old enough to understand what Farzin and Crystal had been doing to him.Feeding him the food of wrath  against his own mother.I did not do this to my child.I loved my son and he loves me.And I always let Daniel know and feel he is special and is loved by many and it did not matter one bit what Farzin,Crystal,Crystal's mother or step-dad (who is also a truck driver)thinks about me,I know who I am and Daniel knows who I am and God,Jesus knows us both.What Daniel did not know is since a child I had been persecuted for Christ sake,by school mates just for raising my hand and saying I was Jew,they thought that I was Jewish,and the girls in the class three of them beat on me and threw rocks at me.Isn't this sad that Christian people teach their children
that Jewish people don't have the Lord,when they are is chosen?What else he didn't understand was that
his daddy nor Crystal had the Lord Jesus and when my son accepted the Lord in his heart they persecuted him .Farzin beat me along with his mother because they found my Bible and Corrie Tin Boon book.I was persecuted for the name of Jesus.God gave me and my son a promise and God does not lie.We ,my son ,are blessed.And I love you and will always love you and nothing can change that.All my son ever dreamed of when he was a child was for his mommy,me Deborah,to marry someone good so that he could come and live with me.And I tried but with all the abuse I had gone through ,it truly was inevitable that my choice of a man was not going to be a good one and in my relationship with the Lord ,I had not at this point grown enough to make the right decisions without the Lord intervening.I did not always make the wisest decisions.But
I do believe any one who can remember 17,18,19,20,21,22,23,24,25,26,and so on can agree.Any unwise
decisions are not to be persecuted a life time for.You live ,you grow ,and you learn.Just as Daniel learned when he went on his first road trip with John and I that mommy ,mom,mother worked harder than his own daddy.He also,as Crystal and Farzin knew,there were no cell phones in 1994 to make a phone call.You had to go to a truck stop to call and when you are on a schedule of 22 stops you had no time to stop at a truck
stop and say approx.what time you would be getting in.And sometimes when you crossed State lines the weather would change and instead of going 65mls an hr you would be a creeping five miles an hr,Daniel also learned that traffic accidents also cause delay.And sometimes the weather would be so bad we wouldn't get in but long enough to shower,eat,and head back out.You see Crystal knew these things also because her step-dad was a driver also,but because she held it against her own,she wanted Daniel to hold against me.But Daniel's first trip with us he saw and understood,and knew that mom was not drunk or on drugs because when she came home she slept,it was that she was road tired and exhausted.Because not only did she drive a big truck,she unloaded about 45,000 lbs a week.As we hauled  pizza products and had to pull the orders off the pallets and hand dolly them in .22 stops a week .Another misconception is the judge only awarded Farzin Abshari the custodial  parent because I had agreed  and I accepted the visitation .I had trusted and prayed to the Lord that Crystal would love you and care for you as I would and I promised the Lord not to begrudge her making you call her mom,It hurt me because you came crying to me that she made you call her mommy and you didn't want to.My visitations would not just be on a weekend as most of the time I could not make it on the weekend because I was working.And there were no child support orders because when we got divorced I was kicked out on the street with out anything.No car even.No job.That is why I worked at a
titty bar as a cocktail waitress and bartender and stayed at a hotel.That is why I could not pick Daniel up was because I did not have a place to live or a car.Daniel did Not ever see me having sex in front of him ,this is a lie.Now before
Farzin kicked me out Daniel did walk in and see Farzin and I making love on the sofa as most children accidentally catch their parents.On the very sofa that Crystal kept in her home with Farzin.No dignity Crystal.You had my dishes also.Low class,very low.Daniel you need to know you and I both are blessed and that can not be taken away,We both were beat because we loved Jesus.And I did try to get help for you,as soon as you told me and I know you were to young to remember but I took you to the police station and they took a report and they sent a social worker out.But we both know your dad manipulates and he is able to convince them differently.And he convinced them that I was just a drug addict and an alcholic.Which I have never been.Trust me sweetheart if I had I would not have been able to recover,with all I have gone through.And Daniel I did support you to the best that I could do at anytime of your life.Where  Daniel do you think the money came from that your dad and Crystal bought you your first car?Crystal was not giving you the money in your birthday cards or your Christmas money.And I tried to take you shopping for your cloths so that you could pick them out.And you know as well as I do that I have sent you more money than in the last six years because I knew you needed help.I love you.Oh,and I do have receipts and tell Dana I have bank drafts that will show when I sent her money.A lot more than the thousand that she so rudely payed me back.And there are check receipts of when I sent money when you were a child.Your abuse and neglect did not come from me.And Dana was not trying to save my son Dana has mental illness I did not realize she had till later in life.Daniel ,you remember you called me crying because of what Aunt Dana had said to you and you said you didn't want to talk to her anymore.I told you you didn't have to and I told Crystal not to let you talk to her anymore.My son is twenty-six years old and will be twenty-seven this year.My son was more mature and balanced in 2009,than these messages that was sent yesterday.My son knows the truth.Which tells me I am correct that something has happened to my son and believe me mama bear is on the hunt.AMEN and she has the HOLY SPIRIT with her.Crystal needs to consider her own grandfathers teaching,because there is something to be said if you can live in peace ,without being attacked by those who hate Jesus as the living God who shed His blood for our sins.When you are in peace with those who do not love Jesus but hate him,it is only concluded that you are not a threat to the anti-Christ,obviously I have been a great threat to the anti-Christ.Because my son and I both were beat up by Farzin Abshari.
And on the contrary to the message saying that I blame everyone else for my problems,well lets weigh the evidence,1.I was beat to almost death by Johnny Wells at the age of fourteen,My head was shaved bald were the injury occurred.I suffered humiliation and embarrassment the first week because of the stench.I recovered and I went to school and I studied.I was molested and raped by many of my own family,I did what I  was supposed to do and told the truth.Incest is a lifetime scar and some women never recover from one incestuous encounter,I had six years of molestation and rape on a continual daily basis from four family members as a child.I with stood the humiliation of testifying in the court of law against my father,in front of the media and school peers.I had the hurt and rejected feelings of my adoption not working because she wanted
a husband and I did not want male gender around me so I could recover from the abuse that men and sisters
had done to me,still I was a happy person,I smiled and made friends,but most important to me was studying ,good grades,my future,love and a relationship with God.I knew it was time for counseling and I demanded to receive it.I worked at the age of fifteen ,I babysat and I cleaned office buildings.I was a happy person.I had boyfriends and I did not have sex with them.I decided to get married because I loved the man at seventeen
and I took on the responsibilities of caring for my son.(I WOULD LIKE TO SEE MISS CRYSTAL WORK WITH A DOZEN CLOTH DIAPERS<WITH NO WASHER AND DRYER AND ABOUT A DOZEN SLEEPERS<WASHING UNTIL YOUR THUMBS ARE BLISTERED)to deal with being beat up on a regular basis,to crying out to God to come back to your home land.Don't forget being in a place that nobody hardly spoke your language,to coming back to no place to go,yet I still did not give up,I did not give up on God,I did not give up on my son.Humm,I believe when it is said that you blame others that means that they had not fault in the situation and you tell them its their fault,Blaming others is not the same as telling the truth as to what someone has done to you,AND I believe in forty-five years and eighteen of those in a career that has great responsibilities  that I have shown that I do NOT blame other but on the contrary I tell the truth,weather some one likes it or not.I have been a good mother to my son and he does know it,and to compare the looks of one real mother to a step-mother is about the most childish and insecure comment yet.
My son has always been proud of my appearance even though I have dental problems,up to 2009 my son
was never ashamed .What ever you have done to my son,whoever you are,trust me you will be punished to a degree that GOD determines ,there is the promise of justice on the earth and after death.My son was proud of me and I of him .Oh,and another thing ,the KINGDOM OF HEAVEN ,I will be there where I will never get old.But if you consider forty-five old,then you are extremely young that you have no business reading this blog in the first place.I am only nineteen years older than my son,so I know my son does not consider me old,and sorry but if I was looking for someone to love,maybe I should remind you I have someone to love ,God is my lover,I love myself and I love my son .Oh,you mean in the flesh,you mean sexual,no I have no sexual relationships going on,don't want one.and I have a love in my heart for someone that is a far far better
man than any ex-husband or boyfriend I have ever had.And he's got God too!And I guess I should tell you I have friends that love me too.I AM AN AMERICAN>GO PUT A BULLET IN YOUR OWN HEAD FARZIN ABSHARI YOU WILL NOT DESTROY MY SON OR ME.And Crystal was never Daniel's babysitter she was his daddy's lover.Also in response to the message,Daniel was living with me in Bowling Green,Ky,he had a fight in school and was suspended,I had Daniel grounded to his room for the day and when I went in to check on him I found he had snuck the phone in his room and was talking on the phone all day.I confiscated the phone and after dinner I instructed Daniel that since Dennis would be coming in that night he was going to help me clean the house.I gave him a mop and told him to mop the kitchen floor.Daniel
was giving me some bad mouthing and my patience was running thin by that time.I went to the kitchen drawer
and got a butter knife to scrape some stickers off the sliding glass door,before Daniel saw that I had a butter knife he said to me,"So what ,you want to kill me now."and I was angry and replied "Don't you know if I was going to kill you I would have done it already."I was angry and if I had enough time before Daniel had smarted off like that I would have sat him down and asked him why he thought I was going to kill him.Daniel knew that was not what I was going to do ,because he saw me scraping the stickers off the window.Daniel was a fifteen year old boy who was beginning to be angry with me because I had forbid him from going down the street to the trailer that a women and her son lived in.This boy was not a good influence on my son and I did not like the mother(and by good cause because my son called me when he was nineteen and informed me that this women had given him oral sex,this was right after I had been sexually assaulted by the officer and the way my son told me he was bragging about it like it was just another sexual experience,to me it was molestation of a child but I had no way to deal with this along with everything else I was dealing with all at the same time)Daniel snuck out past me and left the house.I went to try to find Daniel and went to this women's trailer,she answered the door and said Daniel was not there,I could feel that he was so I went home and called the sheriffs department,they came out and said since it was his second time to run off that they had to take him to the station.I did not have a car ,so I called Dennis and he went to pick Daniel up.They came back with an officer and they informed me that they had contacted Daniel's daddy and he wanted him on a flight the next day back to Ft.Worth.I have NEVER HAD ANY INTENTIONS OF HURTING MY SON<YOU IDIOTS<MY SON WAS COVERING UP THAT HE WAS BEING MOLESTED BY THIS WOMEN<GOD HELP ME IF I DON'T REALLY AND TRULY DIE OF HEARTBREAK.I was not given enough time to find this out and I would have been the only one my son would have told at fifteen.My son lived with this on his own.It's not fair and when he told me it was already four years later and I was dealing with my own situation of being sexually assaulted.